Sunday, December 12, 2010

God works in mysterious ways! Hallelujah!

I am really amazed how thing work out without knowing. God really knows how to work things out. This doesn't always happen but it happens when it is need or when it is really necessary. You don't even need to ask but things will happen for the best.

Things that happen in the 48 hours that really made me glad and amazed:

1. I was able to cook a tuna spaghetti. While eating it, I realized my taste buds have adjusted to the Indian sense of taste. I know I can reverse it to the normal sense of taste, hopefully.

2. I was able to hang out with Kuya Ben. He knows that also meant he needed to help me out with my errands.

3. I was able to eat at McDonalds. I was able to eat fries and have my favorite caramel frappe, if I was in the Philippines I would be too cheap to buy a frappe.

4. Kuya Ben had a funny moment. He went to the throne... in the ladies throne at McDonalds!haha

5. I was able to send money to the Philippines. I was going to pay the transaction charge by my credit card but they wanted cash. Good thing Kuya Ben was there.

6. AutoZone has the Brake Caliper Bracket for my 2002 Honda Civic! Hallelujah! It was $40 compared to $200 for buying the whole set.

7. I was able to eat at this Capri Pizza Place at Severna Park. I gave a tip of $2. I am really cheap so that was too big for me.haha

8. I was able to get my stuff from the other house. Finally! I never thought my car will get filled in but it was! My new problem is that I have to get rid of some stuff!

9. I was suppose to help Tita Belen move some stuff from her old store to her new store. I was worried if I can ask to take some few hours out of work because that will be a challenge. I don't know if my boss will let me out.

Guess what happened? Early this morning, I saw Tito Nap called. I was like.. ohh ooh! When I called him, he said the moving thing was moved to next weekend because there will be a snow storm tonight. Talk about miracle and working things out. That saved me free from a dilemma!

God really works in mysterious ways! Hallelujah!

Yey! I need to take a nap and prepare for my interview tomorrow! :)

Monday, December 6, 2010

How stronger do we need to be?

I have finished of Joan of Arcadia Second Season. I have mixed emotions after finishing it. The second season is the last season of the show. I wish they continued it but I hope that they didn't. Joan of Arcadia is my favorite.

Why do I think the show should continue? ( It has been defunct for 5 years)

  1. It was the only show that I never got tired of sleepy doing a dvd marathon of. It was not just because it was only 2 seasons but because the show is really great.
  2. The show has the best conversations.
  3. The show doesn't show any biases to any religion.
  4. The show is very easy to relate to.
  5. The show has a lot of wisdom.

Why it shouldn't continue?

  1. The show is becoming extreme fantasy. There is a possibility that there will be a war in the world of good vs. evil and joan will save the world.
  2. CBS just cares about the ratings does compromising the content of the show.
Those are all that I can think of.

So what are the thing thoughts have intrigued me regarding the show?

1. God. Who is God? Can he really be defined or identified?

My though: He is around. He is. We just need to have faith.

2. Freewill

God gave us freewill to live our lives but under his guidance. He gave us freedom to live ourlives.

3. Punishment

God does not punish. He gave us freewill but also means that we need to be responsible in living it. What happens to us are because of the course of actions and of connections that linked us to each other.

4. Strength

How strong do we need to be? What is the barometer for strength?

We know we are stronger than before when we able to overcome an adversity and surpass greater challenges today than yesterday.

5. Relationships

Relationship are not just within the family. We are in this together. Everything we do creates a ripple effect to everyone connected to us.

There are a lot more. I will try to remember them. But for now, all the wisdom are engraved in my soul. I hope I do embody them.


On a side note, I called my aunt because I was not able to call her the last few days. She left me a voice mail last week that she had a dream. I talked to her the night before I was going to quit the job but the night of the day or the day after I didn't answer her call.

She had a dream wherein my mom and her were playing some cards. Then our the family helper Auntie Conching, asked my mom why does she have a lot of stuff in bag. My mom said that she was moving. This dream was interpreted by my aunt about me leaving my job. She is saying and interpreting that my mom is worried about me quitting my job without having a job to go to. Also, my aunt kept on reminding me that I should be careful and be more careful.

I wonder if I did pick up the phone that night and the next day to answer her call, will I change my mind about quitting? Mom knew that I did not like this job though. But I do admit that I am a little worried about not having a work to go to after I leave here. But I know God will help me. I am kind of sure that if I even though I picked up the phone, I will still continue about quitting.


HR of Gaylord called me for a Job interview. They scheduled me for Wednesday at 10 AM. I couldn't do it so I rescheduled. Hopefully, I get a better schedule. I really hope I do get this job.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Happy 1st Anniversary!

I can't believe it has been a year since I arrived in the States. Happy 1st Anniversary!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

While teaching Kuya Ben at Barnes and Noble, my mind just went off then it turned on with the ideas of graduate school. Being there, surrounded by all the books, is giving me this unconscious nudge of going back to school. And then, I started looking at the walls. The wall had a painting of Hemingway and some other people I don't know. Then, it dawned on me that there are still a lot of things to know which made me question my plans and encouraged my thoughts of pursuing graduate school.

As we were about to leave, I saw a magazine about 2011's best graduate schools in America. It was $9.95, I couldn't afford it. I was being too cheap thinking that I can just Google it. I took a peek of the magazine. There was Yale, Harvard, Standford, NYU, University of Pennsylvania and more. Most of which are my dream schools. Then, I realized I am in America. I can make things happen. I can enroll to my dream school. I can try and I will, after I move out.

The 20th. I will leave my job and house which I have been 'home' for a year. The 19th. The official day that I quit that job. I started packing and organizing stuff today and I have realized that I have accumulated a lot of stuff this year. Stuff that pertains to material things, memories, and lessons. Regarding material wealth, I have some of which I need to sell. I am starting to worry about how I will move my stuff.

To be honest, I am both overwhelmed and scared about finally moving out/on. Moving on after a year of being out of track. I am not regretting this year nor my job. This job challenge my goals and how I will accomplish them. This year taught me a lot and also gave me a lot.

I am overwhelmed by the fact that 'this is it'. I am finally moving. I going to be independent. My official freedom in the Land of Dreams. Finally, I am declaring independence. This kind of independence is different from the one I experienced from college. Before, I have mom to support me. Now, I only have myself. If the worst comes, I can only help myself. There is no mom to call. I am officially standing on my two feet having a journey in the unknown. I have to conquer my dreams but I also need to survive. Independence is double edged because it can be liberating but also it can be worrisome. The independence that I am looking forward to two weeks from now is giving me some worries. I am worried about not finding job - a source of income. I am still waiting for some interviews. I have my sideline on ebay/amazon/craigslist. But those are not enough. The financial aspect is always an issue with me. Basically, the what if regarding my big move is pessimism about not making 'it'.

But who can say if 'I can make it or not'? I don't have control of everything but I know that I can do something. I will try my very best. I have to believe that I can. I CAN! God help me.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I did it!

Finally, I said it. I had some heart pumping moments. I am a little scared. But I have to say it.

I was waiting for a sign subconsciously. I was reading some articles on for some how to be rich tips.

Here is an advice that really encouraged me:

Don't Sell Yourself Short
Some individuals are extremely loyal to their employers and will stay with them for years without seeing their incomes take a jump. This can be a mistake, as increasing your income is an excellent way to boost your rate of saving.

Always keep your eye out for other opportunities and try not to sell yourself short. Work hard and find an employer who will compensate you for your work ethic, skills and experience


I finally resigned. I did some reading on how to resign but pretty much it my own style that did it.

I just told Dr. Tanveer the best way that I can. Telling him my last day and all and my plans after.

With him, I know it will be cool but with the rest of the family, there will be some explanations needed.

I was in tears with Ms. Tasleem. She was the last person I didn't disappoint. But we were to talk about it well. At first, she said for me to think about it but then she let me go and told me to do what I want to do for my future.

To a new start... to my dreams... I will conquer the world!


Like what Martin Luther King said: "Free at last, free at last, thank God Almighty, I'm free at last."